And Abraham Went Out . . .

Hmm. I haven't had much to say here lately. Much is going on in my heart but I'm not sure how to coherently put it into words. Please pray for our family as we wait in Him and carefully walk this journey of life.

You know I had a hard time sleeping the other night. That seems to be happening to me often lately. I knew I couldn't just lie in bed. I got up but was unsure of what to do with myself. I didn't know how to venture towards peace in my soul.

Eagle days in Sauk City. Brr.

I opened up the computer and knew if I just surfed the net, chances are my search would be fruitless. So I went to our picture folders in the computer. I spend 30 minutes just looking at old pictures of the first few years of our marriage and with the boys.

A certain peace did wash over me. I thought to myself how we have had numerous heart aches and difficulties these past 8 years. But I looked at the boys' faces in those pictures and remembered all the good times we've had and I was thankful. It is possible to be struggling with this and that but to still enjoy life at the same time. Time flies. Kids grow up so quickly. Those years can only be lived once.

It is tempting to say, "When this and that happens, THEN I'll be happy and be able to move on." In the meantime, life ebbs by. Life is happening.

After looking at those pictures of our children, our three very special gifts, I was able to go to bed with a special mission of peace. Tomorrow I will lay aside all the anxieties.  I'll look into the faces of my children and savor this moment. I will hug my husband and love him with all my strength.

I have a purpose for today. God be praised.